Anonymous 2

Age 24

2024: coming back to my car to see that id been robbed, noticing a bag that belonged to me a few feet away on the ground and sprinting the rest of the distance to make sure the car was still there, seeing the broken glass all over the back seat. it was incredibly hot that day

2023: walking back to the train after a concert. in a lot of pain in my joints but very pleased. meeting someone while waiting for the train back across the river who had also just come from the concert and realizing that we had spoken a few months prior on a dating app

2022: moving from my first apartment into my second apartment. had to heft a bunch of my shit up 2 flights of stairs alone & had to move most of it on my bike, & then i had to go to work shortly after and i felt very bad physically after that

2021: waking up to a message conversation telling me a friend had taken her own life. from fear at the first message to anguish & powerlessness. precipitated my first relapse into self harming

2020: i have a lot of trouble remembering things from this year. the only thing i can really think of is walking my dog around the suburban development my family lived in

2019: my final for one of the few classes i hadnt dropped out of yet in college consisted of going to a bar in the north end and playing the songs we had practiced together in front of a bunch of uninterested drunk people. it was cold and wet out but the most fun i had had in years

2018: the directionlessness that comes with graduating high school and suddenly being told you are an adult. i have a particular recollection of standing in a wawa and looking at the cigarettes behind the counter. i couldnt buy them because the prior year my state had raised the age from 18 to 21 but it made me think about what it means to be an adult

2017: in the stands at a football game because i had joined " pep band" & having a cheerleader that i sort of knew invite me to a party that halloween. i still remember exactly how she worded it at first

2016: the girl i had spent most of my time in high school in a difficult / tumultuous friendship with pulling me behind a pillar in the hallway to show me the scars on her thighs under her dress. probably the most sincere intimacy i had been shown at that point in my life & it made my heart race

2015: school picture day i had a really fucked up dye job because i tried to make my hair pink without any help and i did not bleach it nearly enough to go a color that light. i was wearing a grey shirt with flowers on the arms

2014: going to see a concert in a now-defunct venue in the middle of nowhere. the first time i had been to a general admission show in a smaller place without seats. i spent the whole night directly in front of the speakers & at the end of it my ears had been thoroughly fucked to the point that everything sounded high pitched

2013: walking home on a very snowy day while playing panic at the disco on my ipod

2012: thinking to myself distinctly while i was in the hallways at school "i wish i was a girl, but im not trans because i just want to have been born a girl, not transition"

2011: my first guitar lessons with my middle school science teacher. i can still play a little song he taught me that was meant to help me memorize the pentatonic scale

2010: in an old church while on vacation, seeing tombs made me suddenly realize that i was going to die one day and i broke down crying

2009: sitting with my childhood dog while waiting for my mom to get ready to take her to get put down. older sister came up with a camera and took a picture of both of us. i do not know why

2008: going to my dad's friends house to use their pool, i remember them having a frankly ridiculous amount of pets. i was told it was upwards of 20 cats. they had 3 dogs, some lizards, birds, chinchillas, & probably some other shit i cant remember. it smelled absolutely awful inside their house

2007: my sister and i had friends that were a pair of siblings the same age apart as us and i remember going over to their house a lot. i remember distinctly thinking that it was strange/novel that their mom worked and their dad stayed at home. we spent a lot of time on their computer looking over each others shoulders doing a whole lot of nothing

2006: being brought by a friend's parents to see a concert they had box seats to. i dont remember much of the concert itself because when it started up a bunch of his dad's adult friends showed up and being surrounded by unfamiliar adults while loud music played overwhelmed me quite a bit and i hid behind the couch for most of it. i do remember there being free food though

2005: getting mad at a kid for shutting me down when i tried to play pretend & going to tell the teacher

2004: having to share a bedroom in the finished garage with my baby sister because we didnt have enough bedrooms for all the kids

2003: walking down the street towards our house after we moved back from overseas

2002: playing with toy cars in a public park

2001: too young

2000: too young

1999: N/A

1998: N/A

1997:

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